Wednesday, March 28, 2012

A Little Defeated

I come to you frustrated and if I were to be completely honest, a little defeated, too.

I have tried to complete the Couch to 5K's (C25K) week 4 day 1 (W4D1) for the past two days without success. Yesterday, I went to the gym with my sister in attempt to complete my first 5 minute run since starting the program. I didn't finish it. I made it to 4 minutes when my thoughts quickly went from "You can do it!" to "I need to stop, right now!" I wasn't too disappointed with myself as my running was really forced yesterday. My head wasn't completely in it. I didn't feel like running at all. I told myself that tomorrow would be different and that I would give it another shot, then.

Tomorrow came today and there was no change. I tried to run again but I couldn't will myself to finish my first 5 minute run. I was thinking too far in to it. So many thoughts were running through my head. I was thinking that my lungs would burst if I kept going; that if I slowed down, I might as well just stop and walk; that it shouldn't be this hard. Then before I knew it, it happened; I was no longer running. I was walking.

Running is such a mental sport. I feel like my inner cheerleader is damaged, or maybe she is just tired. Either way, I refuse to give up. Next time (because there WILL be a next time) I am going to remember this as I run:

 W4D1... I'm coming for you.


  1. I did C25K last year and am doing it again this year (I had some health issues in the fall and I had to quit running for a while). I just finished W5 today. I will say, though, that Week 4 is probably the hardest week. I think I had to spend an extra week on it last year. So, JUST KEEP AT IT! It's okay if you need a little extra time to get through it!

    1. Thank you so much for the encouragement! It really means a lot! I'm going to keep at it and jump for joy when I finally complete W4D1! :)

  2. I am doing the c25k program right now, and am going to start on w4d1 tomorrow! I'm extremely afraid, because I have been having a hard time trying to run 3 minutes. Hopefully soon, we will both be able to get through it!