I have tried to complete the Couch to 5K's (C25K) week 4 day 1 (W4D1) for the past two days without success. Yesterday, I went to the gym with my sister in attempt to complete my first 5 minute run since starting the program. I didn't finish it. I made it to 4 minutes when my thoughts quickly went from "You can do it!" to "I need to stop, right now!" I wasn't too disappointed with myself as my running was really forced yesterday. My head wasn't completely in it. I didn't feel like running at all. I told myself that tomorrow would be different and that I would give it another shot, then.
Tomorrow came today and there was no change. I tried to run again but I couldn't will myself to finish my first 5 minute run. I was thinking too far in to it. So many thoughts were running through my head. I was thinking that my lungs would burst if I kept going; that if I slowed down, I might as well just stop and walk; that it shouldn't be this hard. Then before I knew it, it happened; I was no longer running. I was walking.
Running is such a mental sport. I feel like my inner cheerleader is damaged, or maybe she is just tired. Either way, I refuse to give up. Next time (because there WILL be a next time) I am going to remember this as I run: