Tuesday, November 27, 2012

A Lot to Process

I want to first start this blog by saying that I am completely honored to have been featured on one of my favorite blogs to read, www.healthyberg.com. I have been following Krista's blog for quite a while. She is a great writer and I always drool over her food photography. Krista featured my weight loss story while I was on vacation and I found the link to the post yesterday! If you are interested in seeing the post, you can click this link: http://www.healthyberg.com/2012/11/weight-loss-success-story-kay.html.

In my blog post from yesterday, I outlined a few mini goals for this week. My results from Monday are below.

Mini Goals:

1. Drink 64 oz. of water each day - Done!
2. Purchase and begin taking prenatal vitamins daily - Done!
3. Pack lunch all week - Done!

My awesome, sweet, supportive husband went to the grocery store for me last night while I worked late. He made sure to buy some prenatal vitatmins for me and some spongebob gummie vitatmins for himself.

My husband also took my grocery list with him to the store and bought everything I need to follow through with packing my lunch every day this week. Today, I brought a can of Progresso Light Chicken and Dumpling soup. It was the first time I had tried this particular soup and I really enjoyed it. The soup had a base of chicken noodle and the dumplings were delicious! The entire can was only 160 calories and totally delicious.

I started thinking about getting back in the gym today. The free gym, that is. I have access to gym equiptment at our school district. The gym is open from 6:00 p.m. - 9:00 p.m. on Monday - Friday as long as school was in session that day. They have treadmills, ellipticals and stationary bikes. I started going through my song lists that I created when I began running really hard in October. The songs really helped me keep up my fast pace. I remember how challenging it was, and how far I pushed myself. I would usually leave there feeling dizzy. I feel incredibly guilty at this time because as I was looking through my song list, I noticed the date it was created. I created this particular song list and used it during my hard run the week before and during the week  I began hemorrhaging (which evenutally lead to my miscarriage in early November). At the time, I had no idea I was pregnant. I was in the middle of the 6th week when I eventually found out I was pregnant and was at 7 weeks when I miscarried. I still can't help but feel guilty. Perhaps my intensity in the gym caused the hemmorage? I felt defeated when I realized this possibility; guilty. I know that I shouldn't blame myself but it's hard not to.

So, while I am eager and wish to get back to the exercise routine that I had in October, I am not sure if I should quite yet. I will definitely take it day by day, hour by hour. I have a lot to process and a lot to deal with right now. The desire to resume working out is there and I trust that my body will tell me when I should go and when I need to take a break.

In effort to end on a brighter note, I am happy to say that I am down two pounds from when I left for vacation. I lost a pound while on vacation and I lost a pound last week during Thanksgiving break. I am at 238 lbs. right now and hope to be down at least another pound come Sunday!

1 comment:

  1. Wonderful post! I don't think that your exercise had anything to do with the miscarriage. I know you might want to blame something, but exercise even lots of cardio shouldn't cause a miscarriage. Maybe the next time you're pregnant bring it up with your doctor, hey?

    I wanted to mention jog.fm to you. I found it awhile ago and they have songs that match your workout pace :) Kinda neat!