Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Fat Cow

Fat cow. That's what I was called yesterday by a complete stranger. It actually hurts worse typing this right now than it did when I actually heard the insult. At the time, I was walking through the right side of a double door when a man and a woman were trying to walk out through the left side. The left side door was locked so he told the woman to "just push through the fat cow"; the fat cow being me.

Now I think, "just push through me", like I'm nothing? Does he believe that I am nothing because I'm overweight, rather, because I'm a "fat cow"?

Thinking back, I'm not as shocked at the comment as much as I am shocked at my reaction. I just kept walking like nothing happened. It actually didn't even bother me, until now. What does that say about me? I was so quick to accept the insult, as if it was nothing; nothing but what I already expect people to be thinking about me.

I don't need other people to beat me up over my weight. Trust me when I say that I've gone nearly my entire lifetime doing so to myself. Where did that get me? It got me to my highest weight of 268 lbs. I type this now, 30 pounds lighter, and yet, I feel defeated.

I wonder now, at what weight would I need to be for this stranger to consider me a person? For him to not consider me a "fat cow"? But then again, why wonder? It doesn't make a difference. I have been called such cruelties at most any weight.

I almost didn't want to write about my experience today. I didn't want to give this stranger any more thought than I already had. He doesn't deserve it. However, I decided to share; not for me, but for the chance that it would help somebody else.

To some people, it will never matter how hard you have worked or how much weight you have lost. They are still entitled to their own opinion. This is why it is so important to not try to lose weight or live a healthier lifestyle for anyone but yourself! Nobody understands your struggles more than you do, and only you know how much you are capable of doing.

I Haven't Lost Weight

Last night for dinner, I made cheese steaks with our leftover steak, onions and peppers. It wasn't planned but it was a good way to use up our leftovers!


I've been having a hard time keeping up with everything this week, so it seems. I am getting behind on housework and I'm struggling to stay on top of things at work, too. I have been busy scheduling hearing prep meetings with our attorneys at work because I want to know well in advance who will need subpoenaed and what discovery we need to collect to use as exhibits at the time of Trial in December. We have about 10 Trials scheduled in December and with me being gone for over a week in November, it's a struggle. I usually prep for our Trials 30 days in advance, but I am prepping for them all at once this week before my cruise, instead. I feel like I am a hamster in a wheel. It's draining and when I'm drained, I definitely choose the quickest route over the healthiest route for lunch, dinner, etc.

I can't believe that we leave for our cruise next Friday! That's only 9 days away. Throughout the past few weeks, the best I have done is maintained my weight with minor fluctuations. It's something to be happy about, but I always want more. Especially since I typically come back from a cruise vacation anywhere from 5 - 10 pounds heavier.

I feel a little bummed that I haven't lost weight in this Cruise Challenge, but then I remember how much worse it could have been if I hadn't been making meal and exercise plans for each week. If I had done nothing, I would see nothing. I have done something and for that I have seen a maintain in weight. Maintaining is a challenge for me, so in a sense, I guess I did accomplish something. I think my disappointment is from setting high expectations for myself. I didn't set a certain amount of weight that I wanted to lose for this challenge, but in my mind, there was a number. Each week that I didn't get closer to that number, I felt bad.

Do you use a weight-loss amount, or certain weight as a motivation technique to lose weight? Does it work for you?

-I think that it has worked for me in the past, but it's important not to get consumed by it. I think it's easy for the motivation technique to quickly turn into something that holds me back, instead. That's the moment when I need to adapt. Try something else.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Hard to Calculate

Last night my husband had grocery shopping done before I got home from work. This was super helpful because we were able to cook dinner shortly thereafter! We followed our dinner plan and had steak with a side of onions and green peppers. My husband grilled outside in the hurricane (literally) while I stayed inside and sautéed the onions and peppers in a skillet.

After dinner, we watched the weather channel and were shocked with all of the reports of devastation. Our hearts and prayers go out to all of those who have been affected. I am thankful to be able to say that we survived the high winds and rain. We experienced minimal flooding and did not lose power last night.

I didn't go to the gym last night because I didn't think they would be open and I was afraid of losing power. The high school where my gym is located was actually cancelled for today. When there is no school, there is no access to their gym.

Since my husband went grocery shopping yesterday after he was out of work, I was on my own for lunch. I went out to grab lunch and came back with a flatbread pizza and side salad. Today for lunch, I had soup. My husband picked me out a new (to me) kind of progresso soup. It was chicken barley and was only 160 calories for the entire can. It was definitely not as tasty as yesterday's lunch, but it was much better for me.

Sometimes I find it hard to figure out how many calories might be in a meal that I haven't personally made myself. How many calories do you think my lunch from yesterday was?

Monday, October 29, 2012

Pies, Cookies and Tortilla Soup

This weekend was rainy and cold. I stayed inside for most of it. I baked three pies, cookies and a big batch of tortilla soup. My husband was in heaven and I ate things that I shouldn't have. I do feel guilty about the weekend that I just had. I spent way too much time indulging. The scale agrees since I am now up to 239 lbs. Even though I feel like I would love to beat myself up over the gain, I can't. I shouldn't. It will get me no where. Gaining weight is okay; keeping it on is not. That's my goal this week, to get rid of these extra pounds from the long indulging weekend I just had.


My other goals for this week are to follow my exercise and dinner plan. The only thing that can stop me from doing that would be Hurricane Sandy! We are getting some side effects from the hurricane right now but expect to get higher winds tonight through tomorrow.

Exercise Plan:

Monday - Gym or Wii Fit
Tuesday - Wii Fit
Wednesday - Gym
Thursday - Gym
Friday - Wii Fit
Saturday - Wii Fit

Dinner Plan:

Monday - Steak with Onions and Peppers
Tuesday - BBQ Chicken with Baked Potatoes
Wednesday - Steak Salad
Thursday - Chicken w/ Onions and Peppers
Friday - Max and Ermas Tortilla Soup and Salad
Saturday - Birthday Party for Stepmom

Anyone else getting hit with Hurricane Sandy?

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Sleep Indulgence

Yesterday was rough! I felt like I was running from the minute I stepped out of bed. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that I slept in 10 minutes later than I should have. Anyways, I have been super busy at work, trying to prepare for the week that I will be out of the office on my cruise vacation to the Bahamas! It's been very stressful but it will be worth every minute of stress once it comes time to set sail.

Even though all I wanted to do when I got home from work was sleep, I took my dog for a walk. It was unseasonably warm last night (and is today, as well) so I wanted to take advantage of the beautiful weather! For those of you keeping track, this was walk number 8 of 10 as part of my 25 by 25 list! After taking Max for a walk, I decided to go to the gym and spent 10 minutes on the stationary bike and 10 minutes on the treadmill. I could have gone longer but I was extremely bored out of my mind. I forgot to take my earbuds so I could listen to music AND my gym buddy stayed at home. Having a gym buddy and/or having music to listen to really does make a big difference for me! Now I'm curious... Do you workout with a buddy and/or do you find music to help you workout longer/harder?

Ham and lettuce salad with a side of leftove baked potato soup.
After the gym, I made myself a big plate of salad and warmed up leftover soup for dinner. I have been on a major salad kick lately. That is one craving I should indulge in more often! Speaking of indulgences, I have been indulging in sleep a lot this week. I am thinking it could be from the time change that is suppose to take effect in a couple weeks. I think my body wants to start early! Since I have been having a hard time getting up in the morning, I decided to make a quiche last night so my husband and I don't have to worry about "making" breakfast for the rest of the week.




I didn't have my usual quiche ingredients, so I just used ham and cheese. Here is what all went in to it:

10 eggs
2 egg whites
1/2 cup skim milk
1/4 cup shredded cheddar
1 slice ham

I baked the quiche for 20 minutes at 375 degrees. After it was finished, I plugged all of the ingredients in to sparkpeople's recipe calculator I found that 1/8 of the quiche had 109 calories; 6.6 grams of fat 1.1 carbs and 11 protein. Not bad for a quick yummy breakfast!

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Unrealistic Expectations

How do I know my husband loves me?


...because he tells me so through a fine arrangement of turkey bacon.

Okay -- time for a quick poll: If you eat bacon, do you prefer turkey bacon or the "real stuff"?
I have grown completely accustomed to eating turkey bacon. If I had the two choices in front of me, I would go for the turkey bacon, for sure!

Since I forgot to prepare my crock pot for tortilla soup yesterday morning, I was unable to follow my meal plan. Instead, we decided to move date night to last night and we will have tortilla soup on Friday! This actually may help my weigh-in on Sunday since I won't be eating out two nights before the weigh-in day.

Last night was date night numero 10 of 12 as part of my 25 by 25 list. Since we went out for date night, I didn't go to the gym. We made the compromise that I would exchange yesterday for Friday in the exercise plan as well. Balance, balance, balance! If I take a little here, I need to give a little there. This is something I have come to terms with lately. I use to want to follow my plans as perfectly as possible, however, that is just unrealistic at times. This reminds me of a quote I found at the very beginning of my healthy living journey:

"Change takes time, especially when attempting to change long-held patterns. This isn't meant to discourage you, but to remind you of what you already know. People tend to forget these simple truths and expect an obstacle-free road and instant results. Such unrealistic expectations can only lead to disappointment. When setbacks occur, as they must, realize they aren't a sign of failure but simply part of the process." - Unknown

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Wait for Another Day

Last night, I went out to a new restaurant with a couple of my two best friends from high school. We were originally just going out for a drink after work but we were all hungry so we ordered something to eat while we were there, too!


I tried the pumpkin ale and it was amazing!

For dinner, I ordered the chicken tortilla soup with a small salad on the side. The soup was good but it still wasn’t as good as Max and Erma’s version. Speaking of that, I just remembered I was suppose to use my crock pot today to make a copy cat version of Max and Erma’s Chicken Tortilla Soup for dinner tonight. Oops! I guess that will just have to wait for another day.

Since I am not doing so well following my meal plan this week, the least I can do is stick to my exercise plan! I am scheduled to go to the gym tonight, tomorrow and Thursday. I have already found myself making up excuses (I don’t want to go to the gym alone, I am too tired, etc.) but I am not going to give in. I will be going to the gym tonight!

What is your most often used excuse to skip the gym? How do you overcome the excuse?
-My most used excuse is that I am too tired. In order to overcome it, I treat it like something I don't have a choice but to do. The hardest part is getting out of the door, so I force myself to get ready and once I am there, it isn't hard to do what needs to be done!

Monday, October 22, 2012

Skipping Breakfast

This morning, I had to choose between staying in bed or making myself breakfast. Even though I know better, the bed won. We washed the sheets last night and they were just so soft and cozy. It was hard to finally convince myself to get out of bed when it came time to get ready for work. I feel like it's just one of those days. To make up for the lack of breakfast, I am going to have a banana on my way in to work; it's better than nothing!


Photo from August, 2012. My friend, and I.


My friend, the beautiful bride, in August, 2012.
 I am so glad that I didn't schedule the gym for tonight because I doubt I would have been able to go. Right after work, I am meeting a friend for a drink at a place I have never been before. I have only seen this newleywed once since her wedding and I am very much looking forward to catching up with her tonight!

After grocery shopping (and finding some great deals), I decided that I was going to have to change up my dinner plan for the week.

Dinner Plan for the Week:

Monday: Salsa Con Queso Chicken
Tuesday: Crockpot Chicken Tortilla Soup
Wednesday: Baked Potato Soup with Salad
Thursday: Tomato Soup and Grilled Cheese
Friday: Sushi - Date Night
Saturday: Steak and Vegetables

My exercise plan is still the same...

Exercise Plan for the Week:

Monday: Rest
Tuesday: Gym
Wednesday: Gym
Thursday: Gym
Friday: Rest
Saturday: Rest

Do you typically eat breakfast? If so, what's your "usual" choice?
- My "usual" breakfast seems to be turkey bacon and eggs.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Just as Great

I am really proud of my accomplishments this past week!

1. I stuck to my dinner and exercise plan.
2. I lost one pound.
3. I beat my personal record for fastest mile, twice.

I'm planning on making this next week just as great!

Dinner Plan for the Week:

Monday: Salsa Con Queso Chicken
Tuesday: Crockpot Chicken Tortilla Soup
Wednesday: Baked Potato with Salad
Thursday: Tomato Soup and Grilled Cheese
Friday: Sushi - Date Night
Saturday: Pulled Pork Sandwiches

Exercise Plan for the Week:

Monday: Rest
Tuesday: Gym
Wednesday: Gym
Thursday: Gym
Friday: Rest
Saturday: Rest

Since I am on my way out to go grocery shopping for the week right now, I will leave you with a picture of my two favorie watch dogs.



What are your goals for the week?

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Project and Slow Cooker

As I believe I mentioned before, my husband and I have been working on our "home project" that we were to complete this year as part of my 25 by 25 list. Well, the project is finished and so is another item on my 25 by 25 list!



My husband and I have been sleeping on our mattress and box spring on the floor for longer than I would like to admit. We have been in desperate need for a bed frame but, after just buying a house, I couldn't justify spending $1,000 on the kind of bed frames that I liked. I really wanted a head board and toe board, too. So, I waited... for three years a long time. It was worth the wait because my husband and I finally had the time to make our own!

We used old barn wood and the total cost was about $60. We saved a load of money, so what did we decide to do? Spend it somewhere else.


Our "old" TV


Upgraded!

We upgraded our TV and took the other flat screen up to our room! We plan to hang it on the wall in our bedroom, soon.

Last night was date night (date #9 of 12) with my sweet husband. Since we went out for dinner last night, going overboard with eating is not an option tonight. I worked really hard this week at the gym, so I am going to practice my self control tonight! Tonight, we are going to a Cystic Fibrosis benefit where there will be a lot of free drinks and good food.
Speaking of good food, I recently realized that I have not used my slow cooker in at least 6 months. I can't believe it! I LOVE crock pot meals for many reasons; the number one reason being that dinner is ready as soon as I walk in the door from work! I decided to start searching the web for some good slow cooker meal ideas. I came across a couple that I can't wait to try next week!

Do you use a slow cooker for meals? Do you call it a crock pot or a slow cooker? What do you usually make with it?

Friday, October 19, 2012

Hello, Energy!

I am feeling SUCH a difference lately in my energy! Don't get me wrong, I do get tired. I just can't believe how GOOD I feel from sticking to my exercise and meal plan this week. I feel like I have just come from walking miles in a fog; I feel a sense of clarity. I feel limber! Okay. I just laughed out loud a little because I am 24 years old and I SHOULD feel limber. The difference is that I am 24 years old weighing in at 237 pounds. Feeling limber at this weight doesn't happen often, so maybe now you can understand my excitement? I feel like doing a happy dance! My legs feel so good today after running these past couple nights! They aren't sore in the least bit. A cool-down and stretching definitely helped!

Another reason I am happy today (aside from the obvious, TGIF!) is that I have also been binge free since Monday. I haven't even had the urge. Thank you, awesome readers! You're tips definitely have been helping me in that department!

Last night, I spent two hours more time than I would like to admit on the computer. I was filling out an "application" to be featured on a blog that I love to follow, www.healthyberg.com. She is thinking about posting Reader Weight-Loss Success Stories, so check out her blog and send her an email if it's something you may be interested in!

The questions to be submitted were great and I took a lot of time thinking about my answers. Surprisingly, the hardest answer to come up with should have been the easiest; background information. I wrote this section and deleted it and re-wrote so many times that I think I just finally settled with whatever was there, a half hour later. I wanted to keep this section as condensed as possible (not only because my other answers were so long, but) because when it came down to it, sometimes thinking of the past holds me back. Has anyone else heard the little voice "you haven't been able to do it before, so why try now?" That's what I tried to avoid when I wrote about my background information. Here is what I finally came up with; something short, sweet and to the point:

Background information (what your typical eating habits were like growing up, etc.):
 
Boxed/frozen meals and eating out were how we survived in my childhood. We didn't have a clue about nutrition, and we didn't really care! One dollar for a cheeseburger; we were there! If you fast forward to when I was a young adult, you would see that a lot of those poor eating habits seemed to stick with me. I knew better by that time, but I didn't want to change. I didn't want to change until I realized how much I needed to, for my health and well-being.
 
I still struggle with that darn one dollar cheeseburger sometimes; but, I have the will to change and I have changed in many great ways!
 
Now, I have a question for you! Did your eating habits change once you became an adult?

Thursday, October 18, 2012

A Faster Mile

Yesterday was my second binge-free day in a row! I stayed within my nutrition ranges and fit in a lot of exercise.  



First, I took my puppy, Topher, for a walk with my mom and little brother. It was a beautiful day, yesterday so I wanted to take full advantage of it! I didn't want our other dog, Max, to feel left out, so I made sure to take him for a walk, too.We haven't bought a second leash and collar since we got our second dog, so I have to take them on seperate walks. After walking outside, I realized that I was still scheduled to do the gym last night. I didn't want to break my workout plan so I went to the gym and actually ran a faster mile than I did on Monday.

14:56 - New PR!

Happy with my results!
I know that I said on Monday that I wasn't going to try to beat my PR for fastest mile for a little while but I just couldn't help but give it my all last night. I really will take it easy for tomorrow.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Healthy Comfort Soup

Last night I tried this new soup! I found that although it took much longer than I thought it would to make, it was totally worth it! I typically like cooking but last night I felt like I was really in "the zone". I felt a sense of relief while I made this soup. I didn't even realize how much time had passed until I was finished. It was a nice distraction from all of the stressful things going on in my life right now.

The soup took me about 90 minutes from start to finish. It will probably take you less time because like I said, I really lost myself in the kitchen. I did make some changes to the original recipe. For example, I used an entire bag of frozen broccoli, added more garlic and did not include celery. I may try it with the original amount of garlic next time (only 1 tbsp) because it was very strong. Luckily, both my husband and I love garlic so we weren't complaining! My version of this delicious soup is below:


Cheesy Vegetable Chowder

2 Tablespoons butter
1/2 cup chopped onion
1 cup finely chopped carrot
2 Tablespoons minced garlic
4 cups chicken broth
2 large baking potatoes, peeled and chopped
1 Tablespoon flour
1/2 cup water
2/3 cup milk
5 cups chopped broccoli
2 cups shredded cheddar cheese
Salt and pepper to taste



Directions:

Melt the butter in a large soup pot.  Add onions and carrots; saute over medium heat until tender.  Add garlic and cook 1 or 2 additional minutes.  Add chicken broth and potatoes, bring to a boil, and cook until potatoes are tender.  Mix flour with water, add, and simmer until soup is slightly thickened.  Add milk and broccoli and cook until broccoli is just tender and soup is heated through.  Stir in cheese, allow to melt, and serve.
This is a hearty mix of cheesey vegetables and potatoes. It's rare to see "healthy" and "comfort" in the same sentence, but I think this soup may just be the definition of a healthy comfort soup!

Along with being distracted from stress while making this soup, I was also distracted from the urge to binge. I did really well yesterday! I was within my suggested nutritional range and felt really good about it. After my confession in my blog yesterday, and after reading all of the amazing and helpful comments, I decided to really pay attention to how I was feeling when I was "hungry". It didn't make sense that just after finishing a bowl of soup and a plate of salad that I would be itching (almost literally...) to eat something else. So, I took some great advice from my awesome readers and I waited. I drank a glass of water and I told myself if I was still hungry in 20 minutes, I could eat something. The time went by and it turned out that I wasn't as hungry as I thought I was. I ate a 100 calorie ice cream cup and stopped there. I was satisfied!

Even though I spent the most calories on my snacks yesterday, I have to say they were actually pretty well distributed throughout my day. For example, even though I didn't have a lot of calories at breakfast, I did eat some of my snacks shortly after.

Do you tend to eat more calories for breakfast, lunch or for dinner? What is your favorite meal?
Growing up, dinner was always our biggest (and best) meal of the day. Dinner is definitely my favorite meal of the day, still. It's the meal that I get to share with my husband the most, which it important to me.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Phantom Starving

I've got some good news and some bad news. I'll start with the bad because I like to end on a good note. The bad news is that even though I did follow my meal plan last night (salad and fish) I ended up binging after my husband got home. I was phantom starving (a term I came up with last night). I think I was anxious and therefore I needed to eat...? I don't know exactly what my problem is but I have been doing it a lot; more than I think I have realized and more than I would like to admit. I need some ideas to help avoid a binge, friends. Even if it's going back to the basics, give me what you've got; I need to stop! It's slowing me down and keeping me around the same weight as I was over a year ago. I don't like to use the word plateau unless I have been working hard with no results. It's true that I have been working hard, but it is also true that I have been giving in and eating as I please.

Brightside? It is good to know that I will be able to maintain my weight loss once I have reached my ultimate weight loss goal. Maintaining a 30 pound weight loss is all I have really been doing this year.

While that should make me happy, I want more.

As for my good news, before my binge episode last night, I did go to the gym with my mom as planned. I even tried beating my personal record (PR) for my fastest mile. I was able to shave 33 seconds off of my mile from last week! My new PR is 15:14! Not bad for my second try. I don't intend to beat that for a little while. I think that I need to build up my endurance more because I really pushed myself to my limit to get the 15:14 last night!


1.01 miles in 15:14 seconds

Tonight is a "no gym" night so I will be at home (where the fridge is... scary thought). I am going to try to keep myself busy with making soup for dinner, doing the dishes, sweeping and mopping the floors, and if I end up being "phantom starving" I will make myself a salad... or two. No binging tonight! I can do it!

Monday, October 15, 2012

Wonderful Weekend

This weekend was great! My husband and I had an amazing date night on Friday, followed by my little brother's adoption party on Saturday and pumpkin carving with my in-laws on Sunday!

Date night #8 of 12
 
Yesterday was unseasonably warm so my husband and I enjoyed what may be the last motorcycle ride of the year. We drove down a country road and I asked him to stop when I saw a park. Most parks in the area have walking trails so I was hoping there would be one at this park, too! Sure enough, we found our third new walking trail of the year. This completes another item on my 25 by 25 list! This trail was short but beautiful. Leaves covered the ground and it was the first time I could actually smell fall this year. The leaves cracked under our feet, we held hands and enjoyed the warm weather as we walked along.




The weekend of family gatherings was fun and wonderful for everything but my weight-loss efforts. I indulged in pizza and treats during both occasions this weekend. I didn’t think about what I was eating; instead, I enjoyed the moment, who I was with and what we were doing. It was relaxing but I am ready to snap back to the reality of watching what I eat and trying to eat healthier. I have been up in weight since my week of being sick two weeks ago (239 lbs) but I am happy to say that despite my indulgence I am down a pound, today (238 lbs).

My Workout Plan for the Week:

Monday – Gym
Tuesday – Rest
Wednesday – Gym
Thursday – Gym
Friday – Rest
Saturday – Rest

My Dinner Plan for the Week:

Monday – Fish with Side Salad
Tuesday – Cheesy Vegetable Chowder
Wednesday – Grilled Cheese and Tomato Soup
Thursday – Fish with Side Salad
Friday – Date Night
Saturday – Grilled Cheese and Tomato Soup

I know that my meal plan looks a little off this week. My husband is out of the house from 7 a.m. – 10 p.m. Monday - Thursday week due to work and classes. I tried to use that as an opportunity to spend less on groceries this week. We are both looking forward to another date night on Friday since we won’t be seeing much of one another this week.

Friday, October 12, 2012

An Extra Happy Friday

Happy Friday, everyone! My Friday is especially happy because I only have to work half a day and tonight is date night with my husband!

We have decided we will be going to Texas Roadhouse for dinner. I always get the same thing when I go there; the 6 oz. sirloin with two side salads (combined) and a side of ranch. I think it's crazy that they don't offer a steak salad on their menu. I usually cut up my steak and add it to my salad to create my own. I have planned ahead and added my meal to my sparkpeople.com nutrition tracker. I also have added a Starbucks latte to the tracker as we will most likely have Starbucks for dessert. When we are "in the city" for date night we love to visit Barnes and Noble and sip on lattes as we scan the shelves. It's a quite and relaxing date night tradition.

I just remembered that I haven't updated the date night portion of my 25 by 25 list in quite a while. I know that we have gone on more than 12 dates this year but I haven't blogged about all of them. This date night will count as 8 of the 12 we need to share before I turn 25 on February 4, 2013. This is probably one of my favorite items on my 25 by 25 list by far!

Last night, my mom and I went to the gym. It was my third time for the week. I walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes. I like going to the gym with my mom because we get to talk! It's unusual for a couple days to go by without me talking to her, but chatting at the gym is much better than catching up on the phone. I think we have both been doing an awesome job at sticking to our gym routine and I hope we continue to do this through winter and early spring!

Do you workout better with a buddy or on your own?

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Baseline PR

So far I have gone to the gym twice this week, the third time will be tonight. I have stuck to my meal plan with the exception of last night. I am not seeing any progress on the scale (239) but I think that has to do with some night time binging that has been occurring. I am not sure what the trigger has been but I am trying to get it under control!

I am thankful that I haven't gained any weight this week and I know that I would have if I wouldn't have been sticking to my meal and workout plans as well as I have been! Without this challenge, I don't even want to know how much weight I would have gained.

The other night while I was at the gym, I decided to complete a mile as fast as I could. My time was 15 minutes and 47 seconds. Now that I have a baseline, shaving time off of my personal record (PR) will be something else I can work toward while I'm at the gym!




Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Invitation for Pizza

I was invited to eat pizza for dinner last night. I almost said yes, but I thought back to the lesson I learned last week:

"If there is a lesson to be learned this week, it would be that sometimes things out of my control will hold me back from reaching my goals. This motivates me to do everything I can to not hold myself back. There are other things out there that will do that for me; things that I will not be able to overcome. Illness, injury.. these are things that my will alone cannot overcome. Being "too tired" and not "feeling motivated" are obstacles that I can overcome, with will and determination."

I said no to the invitation for pizza, there will be other times when I can indulge. Right now, it is time to follow my meal plan. It is time to work on my goals. It is time to lose as much weight as I can before my cruise in November!

Speaking of obstacles that are out of my control, the gym was closed last night. (When there is no school, the gym located in the school is closed.) I was scheduled to workout on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday this week. Instead of dwelling on it, I quickly decided to just adapt my plan and go tonight instead.


Last night I tried a new kind of frozen tilapia for dinner. My husband and I really liked it! One serving was only 120 calories. For as tasty and low calorie those fillets were, I need to consider eating fish more often. They were simple to make. I guess that's why they are called "Simply Bake"!



This weekend, I had my in-laws over for dinner. I made stromboli and it was a big hit! We played games and had a nice time catching up. Nothing beats a warm meal with family on a cool fall day. We had a great time! I also had some sister time with my favorite 16 year old last night. We painted pumpkins.





My husband and I spent some time working on a household project this weekend as part of my 25 by 25 list, too. It's hard to believe that I have less than 4 months to finish the rest of my goals this year before I turn 25. I am excited to see how much I can accomplish!

Are your goals time oriented (monthly, weekly, daily, etc.) or open-ended?

Monday, October 8, 2012

Starting to Feel Better (Again)

I am starting to feel better (again) and hope my body is able to kick this cold once and for all! I am up 4 pounds on the scale but that is no surprise to me. I plan on losing that gain this week. We have a fully stocked fridge and I have a plan and the energy to get back to work on my goals!

Meal Plan:

Monday: Tilapia with Broccoli and Rice
Tuesday: Salsa con queso chicken
Wednesday: Pasta and Salad
Thursday: Buffalo Chicken and Broccoli
Friday: Date night
Saturday: Cheesy Vegetable Chowder

Workout Plan:

Monday: Gym
Tuesday: Wii Fit
Wednesday: Gym
Thursday: Gym
Friday: Rest
Saturday: Rest

What are your goals for the week?

Friday, October 5, 2012

Stop and Think - Out of Control

I was really motivated on Wednesday when I thought I was finally beating the cold that I had been fighting since last Friday. I went to the gym and made a new workout and dinner plan for the rest of the week. When Thursday morning came around, however, I was feeling worse than I had all week. The cold seemed to settle in my chest and I was worried that I was in for another week of battling illness. I went to work and called the doctor to schedule an appointment as soon as possible.

My doctors appointment was scheduled for this afternoon at 3:40 p.m. When I woke up this morning, I called off work as I felt like my body needed rest. I slept nearly 12 hours straight and woke up to find that I felt much better! I was finally able to break up a lot of mucus that I wasn't able to before. I am almost fully cleared up now, still coughing from time to time. I was half tempted to cancel the doctors appointment because I feel like I am finally getting over this cold! I decided, however, to keep the appointment because there may be a small chance that I will need an antibiotic to fully kick this thing once and for all!

Since I was so sick, I failed to keep my gym streak going. If there was ever an acceptable excuse to not follow my plan, I guess being sick would have to be it. I tried to go to the gym on Wednesday and it only seemed to make my illness progress. Sleep and rest has been the best cure for me, so far. It's not curing anything goal and weight-wise, though. It is a little frustrating because I have gained weight while being sick. Being overly sedentary this week has not helped my cause.

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If there is a lesson to be learned this week, it would be that sometimes things out of my control will hold me back from reaching my goals. This motivates me to do everything I can to not hold myself back. There are other things out there that will do that for me; things that I will not be able to overcome. Illness, injury.. these are things that my will alone cannot overcome. Being "too tired" and not "feeling motivated" are obstacles that I can overcome, with will and determination.

I challenge us to stop and think the next time that we aren't reaching our goals. Ask yourself, is this something that I can overcome, or is it out of my control? If it's something out of your control holding you back, realizing this may help you to forgive yourself and move forward. I forgive myself for gaining weight this week and I will move forward with my workout plan as soon as I am cleared to do so by my doctor.

Are there any obstacles holding you back from reaching your goals right now? Are they in or out of your control?

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Making up for Down Time

I am finally starting to get over my cold. I didn't end up going to the gym as originally scheduled last night because the cold really knocked me down. I didn't leave the couch all night and it actually seemed to help. I woke up feeling half normal so I decided that I would go to the gym tonight. I only walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes but it is 15 more minutes than I walked last night.

I haven't been doing a good job at sticking to my meal plan this week, either. After the gym, I got a salad from McDonalds because I was too tired to make dinner. I am forgiving myself because I am still sick and I know that I am doing my best with the time and energy that I have. Another thing that I have realized is that this week isn't quite over yet! I still have time to re-evaluate my workout and dinner plan for the rest of the week.

Workout Plan

Thursday: Gym
Friday: Gym
Saturday: Rest
Sunday: Rest

Dinner Plan

Thursday: Pasta and Salad
Friday: Date Night
Saturday: Baked Potato Soup
Sunday: Calzones and Salad

If I stick to my workout plan, this will be my third week of going to the gym three times a week. I am not going to let this cold stand in my way to achieving that! Even if it means going to the gym on a Friday night before a date with my husband. I am feeling better and it's time to make up for my down time while being sick.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Sick and Miserable

I have been sick and miserable all weekend. Thankfully, I had enough time to take the day off from work in effort to have one more day to recover. I am feeling a little better in some ways but worse in others. My head is super congested and my body aches.

My mom was so great for working out with me last week when she was sick. Today, I probably could have worked out but I didn't want to risk needing an extra day off of work. I need to save all the time I can for my vacation in November.

I was searching the web to see if it would be okay for me to exercise while being sick and I found this: http://www.everydayhealth.com/fitness-specialist/exercising-when-sick.aspx

I am hoping to keep up with my streak of going to the gym 3 times a week for the third week in a row!

Work Out Schedule:

Sunday - Rest
Monday - Rest
Tuesday - Gym
Wednesday - Gym
Thursday - Gym
Friday - Rest
Saturday - Rest

Dinner Plan:

Monday: Soup
Tuesday: Shrimp with Veggies and Rice
Wednesday: Baked Potato Soup
Thursday: Leftovers
Friday: Calzones
Saturday: Date Night

Today's weigh-in: 235.4 (1.6 pounds down from last week!)