Sunday, November 8, 2015

Big Bridesmaid Challenge, Part II - Cancelled

I have written and deleted this post about twelve times (without exaggeration). This is just hard.

Despite all of my best efforts to dance around it gracefully, I guess I have no choice but to just write the next sentence. It doesn't look like my sister will be getting married next year, after all.

The Big Bridesmaid Challenge, Part II is no longer. Don't get me wrong, I am still in my friend's wedding next year, and I still need to lose weight for that wedding but, I just can't continue with this challenge right now. I need a break from any words with "bride" in them for a little while. It breaks my heart.

My sister is my best friend. She is so caring, so beautiful, so loyal, so smart. She is my little sister, and even though it's typical for this to be the other way around, I look up to her. She is strong in ways I am not. She is a warrior when I am a worrier. She loves without hesitation. She fights for what she believes in. She is not afraid to be herself (thankfully - because I love exactly who she is). She is so much more than my words can give her credit for right now. I just love her so much.

It would take me hours to write about all of the 20 feelings fighting each other in my heart right now, but, I won't; because, the biggest feeling raging in my heart right now, is the feeling of wanting to protect my sister from any more hurt. So, this is the end of this topic. I just needed to explain why I'm not continuing with the challenge.

3 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear about this. I am sure your sister Is going through a tough time, and she's lucky to have you for support. Hang in there

    Melissa

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear this news but hopefully this will help a little. Almost six years ago, my sister's fiancé called off their wedding just one week beforehand. She was devastated and I was furious. However, I've recently learned through mutual friends that he's kind of made a mess of his life while my sister has been happily married to an awesome guy for over two years. Now I'd like to shake his hand for showing his true colors before they got married. I know it hurts and I don't know the situation but hopefully someday it'll all make sense.

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  3. Aww, so sorry and sad to hear this news. I will keep your sister in my prayers for healing and strength!

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