Despite all of my best efforts to dance around it gracefully, I guess I have no choice but to just write the next sentence. It doesn't look like my sister will be getting married next year, after all.
The Big Bridesmaid Challenge, Part II is no longer. Don't get me wrong, I am still in my friend's wedding next year, and I still need to lose weight for that wedding but, I just can't continue with this challenge right now. I need a break from any words with "bride" in them for a little while. It breaks my heart.
My sister is my best friend. She is so caring, so beautiful, so loyal, so smart. She is my little sister, and even though it's typical for this to be the other way around, I look up to her. She is strong in ways I am not. She is a warrior when I am a worrier. She loves without hesitation. She fights for what she believes in. She is not afraid to be herself (thankfully - because I love exactly who she is). She is so much more than my words can give her credit for right now. I just love her so much.
It would take me hours to write about all of the 20 feelings fighting each other in my heart right now, but, I won't; because, the biggest feeling raging in my heart right now, is the feeling of wanting to protect my sister from any more hurt. So, this is the end of this topic. I just needed to explain why I'm not continuing with the challenge.