The first week of my April challenge was pretty much a false start. I felt motivated to put me first and work toward my goals but then the craziness of life took over. Each day, I started out taking pictures of the food that I ate, in effort to keep track of my calories. Each day, I also let something get me off track.
Last week, I had a lot distracting me from my goals. I let those distractions come first before myself and so I was left stressed out by the end of each day.
My biggest stress of last week came from being hurt by a friend and that took a couple days to sort out. I still don't think my friend understands why I was hurt. There was no sincere apology from my friend, but, it's a sensitive time and, in the end, I'm not in control of how other people act; so, I'm letting it go.
On top of that, there was a lot of work to do for my business last week and also, I was to be a part of a bridal shower come Saturday. Like I said, there was just a lot going on. I didn't really focus much on myself.
The funny thing is that I had a lot more running around to do last week than I should have and that's my own fault. I was in charge of making a wine basket for the bridal shower but, my husband and I kept drinking the wine. Oops! Three bottles of wine later, Saturday came and the wine was finally out of my house! The lesson here is that I can't have wine in my house. Lesson learned!
Needless to say, night time snacking (and drinking wine) made a comeback last week. I would do fairly well all day and then I would sabotage myself in the evening. I used the wine to wash away the stresses of my day. In turn, it made me hold on to my weight.
This week, I am starting out at the same weight as last week. I am at 247 lbs. I'm glad that I didn't gain any weight but, at the same time, I am just feeling very ready to lose this weight! I saw some pictures of myself from the shower and I notice more weight in my face than I had this time last year. I'm ready to change that!
I'm pushing through my false start from last week. This is me not getting discouraged. This is me never giving up!