Monday, October 2, 2017

This One was a Hard One to Write

This post was a hard one to write. While my first post of the month would usually focus on my weight-loss goals, I have too much on my heart that I must release before I can focus on any of that.

I have a confession to make. I don't have cable so, I don't regularly watch the news {locally, or otherwise}. I know it's good to be informed but, the news being broadcast regularly is typically "bad news", or at least that's what I've been seeing lately. So, I actively try not to watch the news at all. There has been some bad news, however, that I haven't been able to avoid.

Natural disasters, terrorism, all the bad things out there and out of our control. There is so much "bad news" in this world and it lays so heavily on my heart. I am naturally very empathetic {at certain points I feel like I can be overly empathetic} and it can be draining.

Sometimes bad things happen and we aren't able to help {even though we want to help} and that can be hard. Sometimes bad, horrible things happen and we just simply and bitterly wonder "why"?

Sometimes when bad things happen, I feel paralyzed with grief. Praying helps, of course but, mostly I just want to hide away with my family and keep them safe from the world. I know that I can't do that for very long, though. I shouldn't. I'll be getting to the reason why, soon.

The news of the mass-shooting in Las Vegas last night made me want to fall to my knees and cry. I hugged my husband and my daughter tighter this morning and rocked Piper down for her nap a little longer. I didn't want to leave the house today but, we did. We went to the library and then the grocery store and I'm glad that I got out there. 

While out with the general public, I was reminded of something very important. In a time when the "bad news" of the world makes me feel powerless, I was reminded that there is always at least one thing in my control: the way that I treat others. 

The way that I treat others is completely in my control and it's one way I can help this world. So, I gave everyone I ran into a smile today. I usually do this simple act of kindness anyway but, I made sure it was more meaningful, done with more eye contact. If anything, it was my way of saying: "I see you, you are not alone, we are in this world together."

Usually, with a toddler at my side, I let myself feel rushed through conversations. I typically hurry in and out of the grocery store, trying not to make eye contact with many people, trying not to talk to anyone for too long {because, let's be real, the patience of a toddler is limited}. Not today, though. Today, I took my time with the person behind the deli counter. I made sure to express how much I appreciated their help, their existence.

Doing something so little, such as taking the extra time to make some meaningful eye contact and really express your full gratitude toward others does make a difference and it is completely in your control. In a time such as this, it is good to be reminded that we are not powerless in this world.


All of the tragedy in the world has been laying heavy on my heart lately. I had no intention of how this post was going to go when I began writing; I just knew that I needed to let my heart speak out. If you feel inclined to share something from your heart today, please feel free to do so in the comments below. 

God be with us all.

1 comment:

  1. This was so touching. I no longer have cable, but when I see it at work my heart sinks. It is mostly bad, unfortunately. When things like that happen I just feel I have to count my blessing and, like you, show my family and friends some love.