Wednesday, August 28, 2019

You Are Still Good

Before I dive in to the content of today's post, I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you to everyone who has reached out to us on social media, via messages, emails and in-person. God doesn't have to show us the ways that He is using this story but, when He does, it is such a comfort and treasure for us. Thank you to those who have shared their own stories with us; who have shared their love and support. We appreciate you.

During the last Revival Night at our church, we were given some time to consult the Spirit and pray. At that time, I felt the Holy Spirit prompting me in two words: "Be Still". Those two words came to me in bold print. My body's immediate response was to tense up. It was such a physical representation of my desire to be in control. I knew it right then, I needed to surrender in the ways I was holding back. Earlier that morning, I found out I was pregnant! From the very beginning, I feared losing the baby. I took it to God and, His response was to "Be Still". God was asking me to trust Him. That even if this baby would not be born to this world, to trust Him.

With my hands and jaw clenched, tears began to run down my wrinkled-up face. I stood in that moment, completely tense, praying and wrestling with these two words before a sudden release. In an instant, all of the tension in my body went away and I remained still. Literal moments later, a young man approached the stage with something he was prompted to share with our church. I don't remember everything that he said, just his last few words. He finished what he was prompted to say with "Be Still and know that I am God." At this point, I just began to weep. That sealed it for me. I remember thinking, "even if not, God, You are still good".

I do not know what God's plan is but, I can tell you that He prepared my heart for this miscarriage. He prepared my heart in so many ways; through experiences, through the community He has provided for us. He is a good Father.

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