Saturday, November 30, 2013

Back to Business after Thanksgiving

I hope that you all had a great Thanksgiving!

My husband and I really enjoyed the time we had with family this holiday. The food was out of this world, and we didn't hold back.



That picture pretty much sums it up.

Now that Thanksgiving is over, and we've got an entire month until Christmas comfort food comes around, it's time to get back to business.




Breakfast this morning: Green smoothie (1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1/2 serving of vanilla whey protein, 1/2 cup spinach) with side of clementine.




My husband and I spent some time finalizing our December goals this morning. We used the awesome new poster boards in our home gym to lay it all out for ourselves.

My workout goals for December include running 3 miles a week, doing zumba 1 time a week, calisthenics 2 times a week and to get back to running a 12 minute mile.

This upcoming week will be a little challenging because I am traveling to Pittsburgh for business on Monday and will not be back home until Tuesday night. I kept this in mind as I made my workout plan for the week.

What are your workout goals for the week?
What are your goals for December?
How was your Thanksgiving?

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Turkey Trot in Home Gym

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!




Good luck to all those participating in a 5K/Turkey Trot, today! I didn't sign up for a turkey trot, myself. After being sick so much this fall, I didn't want to compromise my immune system by running outside in the snow. Instead, I decided to do my turkey trot in the comfort of our very own home gym (while watching an episode of Breaking Bad on my laptop).




I woke up at 6:00 this morning (I couldn't fall back asleep). Since I was up, I decided to make some workout plans/goals on the new dry erase poster board we bought for our home gym last night. My husband and I each have our own boards to make our own goals. I think this will help us stay on track!




If you're wondering if I know that I spelled "virtual" wrong, the answer is yes. It was 6:00 in the morning when I was writing up these goals. My brain doesn't start functioning until after 8:00 a.m. This simple fact is actually how I was able to talk myself into running a 5K today. My brain didn't even know what was going on until it was too late.




Before my run, I ate a piece of peanut butter toast and drank a couple sips of water. (My yoga mat doubles as a breakfast mat.)

My goal for the 5K this morning was to finish in 50 minutes. I managed to meet my goal by running a mile, walking a half mile, running a half mile, walking a quarter mile, running for a little bit, walking for a little bit, then running the rest.




I finished at 48:58, which is only 4 minutes longer than my 5K back in May when I was training for the run. I haven't been training for a 5K, so I am very happy with my results!

Turkey Trotters: Did you do your run outdoors or indoors?
How was your run today?
If you didn't run today, do you think you'll run a Turkey Trot next year?

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Tip for Tuesday: Surviving the Holidays

Goal for this week: give myself a break. I am doing a good job at just going with the flow so far this week. Last night, I had a salad for dinner and got some exercise in.




The salad was amazing! Homemade ranch, black olives, egg, tomatoes and some chick peas. As for my exercise for last night, I was ready to try something new! A local sign has been catching my eye for a while now at a local church. The sign is for Beginner Zumba classes on Monday evenings at 7:00 p.m. Last night, at 6:30, I decided I would give it a try. I got ready, and made it just in time... just in time to see this:




Zumba was cancelled. Bummer! When I got home, I did some Zumba from a Youtube video. It's not the same as an actual class, I'm sure. I really hope they have the Zumba class next week, because I'm ready to try something new!

It's been a little while since I've done a "Tip for Tuesday" and I figured with the Thanksgiving holiday just a couple days away, this would be a good time to share some tips!

Surviving the Holidays

I, personally, experience some motivation issues around the Holidays (clearly so, after my post from Sunday). The days leading up to Thanksgiving, are especially tough. The reason, I believe, is because I start thinking "why should I be good today, if I am going to just indulge on Thanksgiving". Writing it out that way, makes the thought seem silly, now!

Tip # 1: Fight the all or nothing mentality.
For some, the all or nothing mentality is a constant battle. This use to be the case for me. Thankfully, I have gotten over that mentality for the most part, however; it does tend to "come home for the Holidays". If you find yourself stuck in the "all-or-nothing" mind frame, here's what you need to remember: just because you am going to indulge on Thanksgiving, doesn't mean that the entire week should be a free-for-all. That will only make things worse.

Indulging in a little more food than I'm use to over the Holiday's is a given for me. I don't want to change that, either. If you're like me and you don't want to give up your turkey, mashed potatoes, gravy, green bean casserole, and roll this Thanksgiving; then you need to compromise with me, a little.

Tip # 2: Compromise, a little.
If you are going to eat more, then exercise more. If you are going to eat less nutritious food during Thanksgiving, then make sure you get your nutritious food in the days prior and after. As for me, I am eating salads for dinner this week and will be doing something active each night. This should help balance things out for the week.

Tip # 3: Let go of guilt, and give yourself a break.
Simple as that!

What are some of your tips for surviving the Holidays?

Sunday, November 24, 2013

The Good and Bad of November

November has been a challenging month for me, for a couple reasons.

Reason #1 - I was sick for most of November, preventing me from being able to exercise as much as I needed to. Since I was sick in both October and most of November, it helped me find an excuse for comfort eating. I ate out a lot, I ate a lot, and it wasn't pretty. It was a blessing that I was able to stay around 227 lbs. this month. I am starting to get anxious, however, just thinking about the week ahead of me. Thanksgiving is a hard time for anyone who is trying to lose weight. If I were to be honest right now, I feel like throwing in the towel and just letting whatever happens this week, happen.

My little brother, Evan.

Reason #2 - I had a lot of personal things going on this month, which I have neglected to share with you until this post. My little brother, Evan, has been recently diagnosed with Autism and ADHD. My mom adopted Evan a few years ago. He will be turning 4 this January. November has been a difficult month for both myself and my family. Personally, I have felt anxious to help get Evan the services he needs, and have felt hopeless because of how hard it is to get the information we desire and the help we want. Things are finally looking up for us, though. Evan should be getting services within the next three weeks.

Even though November has been a rough month, it has been a good month, too. 

My husband and I.

Reason #1 - My husband and I celebrated 10 years of being together this month. We have spent a lot of time together this month; remembering where we have been, and dreaming about what our future will bring. We have a great life, with great family and great friends. We are truly blessed.

Reason #2 - My brother-in-law and sister-in-law have moved back home from Florida. They made the move back home this past week. This is such great news for us! We were able to spend a few hours with them last night. We chatted, ate snacks and played games. It was as if they never even left. Actually, it was better than before they left. You never realize how much you take something or some people for granted until they are gone. Having to live without them around these past few months made us realize how great it is to have them in our lives; to have them near us!

Now that November is nearly over, I am ready to ditch my old goals and make some new goals for myself. Goal for this week: give myself a break. I realize that I have had a rough month, but I need to focus on the good that has come of it. I also need to not stress about Thanksgiving. This is a time to be thankful for everything in our lives. I am going to go with the flow this week; get some exercise in, eat as well as I can under the circumstances, and enjoy the time we get with family.

What are your goals for this week?

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Zumba Cures Fatigue

Have you ever been so tired that it feels like you are stuck in slow motion while everything around you is stuck on fast forward? That's kind of how I felt today.

Last night, I ran and walked according to my exercise plan.

Exercise plan for the week:

S - Rest
M - Run/Walk (1.5 miles done!)
T - Rest
W - Run/Walk (2 miles done!)

Tonight, I didn't feel like running. When I don't feel like running, it makes the run miserable. I decided to try something different tonight.

T - Run/Walk  ZUMBA!
F - Rest
S - Run/Walk

Somehow, on my way home from work, I got the idea of doing Zumba tonight. I had only done Zumba once before, at the Color Run in Buffalo, NY. It was a blast, and it gave me a lot of energy. This is what I needed today; a cure for my fatigue.

I sent a text to my friend to see if she knew of any classes happening tonight. She didn't so, I decided to research. Turns out, there isn't much in the area as far as Zumba goes. So, I decided to turn to Youtube. Gotta love Youtube. It's free, easy and you don't even have to put on a bra/travel anywhere. (Note to self: wear a sports bra next time you Zumba.)

In my search on Youtube, I found an awesome beginners Zumba video that I plan on doing again and again!




Thoughts during first song: Hey, this is fun! I am starting to feel energized. I'm glad these dance moves are easy to follow! Wow, my arms are starting to burn! Okay, enough with the arms, already...

Thoughts during second song: I really should have wore a bra for this. I'm super glad that I'm home alone. My thighs are starting to burn. Hello, calf cramp. Enough with the hopping, my legs are going to give out.

Thoughts during third song: I am completely failing at these dance moves, but at least I'm moving! I've got the arm pump down, and that's about the only thing I'm doing right during this song. Zumba really is fun, and I'm starting to sweat! This is one heck of a workout. (Yes, my inner dialogue includes words such as "heck".)

Thoughts during fourth song: This is a super fun song. Loving the energy! These are moves I can keep up with! I could do without the quick stomping, though. Okay, I'm starting to feel muscles that I didn't know existed. What, we're done already? That was so much fun!

After doing this video, I have learned three things about Zumba.

#1 - It cures fatigue
#2 - It is no joke! One killer workout!
#3 - It's addicting - I can't wait to do it again!

Zumba readers: why have you been holding out on me?
Who else likes to Zumba? How did you get started?

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

A Decade of Love

Please excuse the interruption from your normal broadcasting, but I just have to share the amazing time that was last night. My husband and I spent the evening celebrating a decade of love!

(Sorry for the blurry photo, he still makes my hands shake.)
My husband and I are high school sweethearts. We started dating 10 years ago, on September 19, 2003. In high school, we use to celebrate each month that we were together. If we use to get super excited over a month of being together, you can only imagine how excited 15 year old us would be to celebrate 10 years of being together! (Just to clarify, 25 year old us was just as excited to have reached this rewarding milestone!)


My husband got me an amazingly thoughtful card and beautiful pearl necklace. I didn't think he had gotten me anything, so this was a nice surprise! I surprised him, as well, with a Decade of Love Scavenger Hunt.




I gave him clue number one first, which he immediately guessed was our High School.




Once we were at the high school, he got to read clue number two. This clue took us nearby to the fair grounds, which is at the park.




Clue number three took us a town over to the Church where we were married.




Clue number four took us out to dinner at Quaker Steak and Lube. This is where I was out eating dinner with friends 10 years ago when I found out Nick was going to ask me out the very next day.




The final clue took us back home; the place where our dreams have come true, and where many more will be made.




During the car ride from location to location, we reminded one another of the many memories we have made within the past 10 years. He reminded me of so many great memories; memories that we'll have forever and memories that I never want to forget.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Healthy Indulgence

I may have found my new favorite "healthy" indulgence.



At-home salad bar. Amazing!

I don't know why I've never thought to do this before. I absolutely love indulging in a good salad bar whenever I get the chance. Snow peas on a salad, count me in. Black olives, chick peas and tomatoes, too? Yes, yes and yes! Top it with a sprinkle of real bacon bits and a boiled egg; how much better could it get? 



Drizzle a little homemade ranch on top (recipe found here). Better level = maxed out. 

That was one killer salad! At-home salad bar night was a total hit!

Right now, I am letting my salad digest. I have a plan to run/walk on the treadmill tonight. I am totally not feeling it. I haven't run in a while, and I know it's going to hurt. Mentally, that is. I am having a hard time finding a reason to run right now. This calls for some motivation searching. 

Here's what I've found:

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I may be over-emotional right now, but that last one brought a tear to my eye. 
Motivation sparked; I'm off to run!

Sunday, November 17, 2013

A Day of Rest

A day of rest. That is what today was, and it was just what I needed!

I may have gotten my husband sick, but I am starting to feel better. (Sorry, Nick!) A day on the couch help me out a lot today. My co-worker friend came over this afternoon for a visit. It's always nice to hang out with her, but it was extra nice because I could stay on the couch for that, too! I feel fully rested and ready to tackle the work week.

Not only am I ready to tackle my work week, but I am also ready to take my goals off the back burner. They have been back there for far too long. Now that I am feeling healthy again, there is no excuse!

Weigh-in today:




Weekly photo weigh-in's have been the one goal that I have been able to keep up with this month. It's been great for keeping myself accountable throughout the week. I haven't been doing any exercise lately, but I've obviously been decent with my meals since I didn't have a gain this week. To be honest, since I haven't been working out and wasn't sticking strictly within calories this past week, I am a little surprised that I didn't have at least a pound gain from last week, but I'll take it!

This week, I am going to work myself back into running.

Exercise plan for the week:

S - Rest
M - Run/Walk
T - Rest
W - Run/Walk
T - Run/Walk
F - Rest
S - Run/Walk

Dinner plan for the week:

S - Lasagna Leftovers
M - Salad Bar
T - Anniversary Dinner
W - BBQ Chicken with Vegetables
T - Chicken Salad with Sweet Potato Fries
F - Calzones
S - Zuppa Toscana

Tuesday is a special day. I even took the day off of work! My husband and I have been together for 10 years as of this Tuesday. An entire decade of being with one another. That's definitely something to celebrate! I'd love to get into the details of what I have planned for us, but it's a surprise. I'll be sure to fill you in after.

As for the rest of my evening, I am going to make a grocery list, tackle it, then spend the rest of the night resting up. I've got a great week ahead filled with work and weight-loss challenges!

What's on your plate for this week?

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Mid-Month Check-Up

I can't believe we are already halfway done with November! I had so many goals for myself and I feel like I'm running out of time.

Whenever I'm sick, or stressed, the first thing to go on the back burner tends to be my goals. It's a bad habit I will continue to try to break.

Goals for November:

Reach 225 lbs. - not there yet
Post Photo Weigh-in weekly - 1/2 done
Post Dinner/Exercise Plans weekly - 1/2 done
Run/Walk 5 miles a week - 1/2 done


Now that I'm 90% over being sick (for the second time), I feel like I can start putting my goals first, again.

How are you doing with your November goals?

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Accountability Works

I usually love to blog; but I haven't been so great at updating lately.


Some of it has to do with the fact that I have been chronically sick. Nothing serious, just a recurring post nasal drip. It's hard to be positive, though, when you don't feel good. It's also been hard to find the motivation to exercise and eat healthy. I've been eating comfort food and staying on the couch. Not exactly what I should be doing now. Beating myself up over it will only make things worse though. I guess that's what brought me here. I don't have anything wonderful to blog about today, but I need to blog anyway. It's my accountability.

Accountability is an important factor in weight loss.

"Your biggest enemy in weight loss may be yourself. Temptation, a busy schedule, fatigue and loss of motivation, among many other factors, can make it easy for you to lose track of your goals and slip up on diet and exercise. Practice self-control and implement a few other techniques that will help you hold yourself accountable and keep you on track to success.

Make a Contract with Yourself

Put your weight-loss plan on paper in the form of a contract with yourself. Define the terms of your agreement by outlining your weight-loss plan. Include a summary of your goals and a detailed description of how you will meet your goals. For example, include your workout schedule and your dietary plan. If your goal is to workout five days per week and consume no more than 1,200 calories per day, include that. Sign the document and post it somewhere you will see it every day. If you feel yourself slipping up, reread the document and renew your agreement with yourself.

Make It Public

When only you know about your weight-loss goal, it's easy to let yourself get away with not meeting it. However, when you you make it public, you'll feel more responsibility to meet your goal. Tell your family the specifics of your goal, such as how much weight you plan to lose by a certain date, or how many times per week you plan to exercise. Post your goal to your social networking website of choice or keep a blog. Post pictures and share your success with friends and family members. They'll expect you to meet your goal, which will motivate you to not disappoint them.

Keep Detailed Records of Your Progress

Success in itself can help hold you accountable. Each day you meet your diet and exercise goals makes you feel good about yourself. When you fail to meet your goals, you're likely to experience remorse. Keep a daily journal in which you detail your exercise and diet -- what type of exercise you did, how long and how many calories you burned, as well as what you ate. Also include any mistakes you made. Reread your past entries on a regular basis to make sure you're on track, and to keep you motivated.

Reward Yourself

Design a reward system that will help motivate you and remind you when you aren't meeting your goals. Each week or month, plan to reward yourself for meeting your goals with a small gift to yourself -- a book or a manicure, for example. If you fail to meet your goal that period, you'll miss out on the reward, which will help hold you accountable for meeting your goals in the next period. Do not reward yourself with food or a day off from exercise. Instead, make the reward something that makes you feel good about yourself and is in line with your weight-loss plan." Source.

I haven't tried the contract idea yet, but it's a good one! So far I have lost 40 pounds and during that time I have used a reward system, kept some reasonably detailed records of my progress and I have made the entire journey public through this blog. Accountability works!

How do you hold yourself accountable?

Monday, November 11, 2013

Sick Again and Typhoon Haiyan

You haven't heard much from me this weekend because I'm sick, again. I can't believe it!

I spent half of October sick with an upper respiratory infection. It started with a bad post nasal drip. That's what I've been experiencing, yet again, this weekend. I'm slightly miserable and afraid of what is in store for me in the coming days. So far, I've had a sore throat ranging from annoying to severe. I spent most of the weekend on the couch, feeling bad for myself. That is, until I heard about Typhoon Haiyan, which has devastated the Phillipines.

If you tend to live under a rock like I do, you can read more about it, here: http://www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/philippines-fears-massive-death-toll-after-typhoon/2013/11/10/2bd314f4-49dd-11e3-b87a-e66bd9ff3537_story_2.html

If you're heart feels heavy, like mine, you can find out how you can help, here: http://thelede.blogs.nytimes.com/2013/11/11/how-to-help-philippines-typhoon-victims/?hpw&rref=world&_r=0

Being inconvenienced by my post nasal drip and sore throat doesn't seem so devastating, anymore. I am actually extremely thankful that is all that I have to deal with this evening.

Prayers to all those affected by Typhoon Haiyan.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Big Salads Make My Heart Sing

This has been a busy week, but a good one at that.

Last night, my husband and I went out to dinner with my dads side of the family to celebrate my grandma's birthday. We ate out at Hosses, the place with a really good salad bar!




Big salads make my heart sing! I wish my salads at home were as good as the ones I make at a salad bar. Fresh crisp peas, red onions, green olives, chick peas, and pickled eggs were just a few of the amazing toppings I used last night.

I weighed in early this week and saw this awesome number:




This is my lowest weight, so far! I was super excited to see that same number this morning, too; surprised, actually, since I expected a small increase from eating out. I did, however, make some healthier choices when eating out, so I guess that helped!

After dinner last night, my husband and I went on a date to the movies. We saw the second Thor movie and it was good! My husband and I don't really have any other plans for this weekend which means we will get some cleaning done around the house, and hopefully some leaves raked, too. If it's nice enough, I'd love to get in a walk with the dogs or maybe even one last bike ride. This may be wishful thinking. I don't think I've come to terms with the fact that it's practically winter.

What are you plans for the weekend?

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Running for 30 Minutes

Tonight's dinner was yummy and healthy.


I followed my meal plan, but I didn't follow my exercise plan. My workout goal for the month is to run/walk 5 miles a week. So far, I have 1.5 miles down. I'll catch up before the end of the week. My head wasn't in it tonight, so I took a break.

Even though I didn't run tonight, I did read about running. I love reading articles at www.runnersworld.com. Tonight, I spent some time reading about how to prepare yourself to run for 30 minutes. I've done this once before, when I ran for 2 miles straight. That was the one and only time, though. I'd like to work up to being able to do that frequently. Lately, my mind has been wanting to hold me back from even completing a mile without stopping.

Below is some of the information found from this article: http://www.runnersworld.com/the-starting-line/how-run-nonstop-30-minutes-or-finish-5k

"Here are some tips to keep in mind as you prepare to run for 30 minutes.
Find your place. Map out a few safe, scenic, flat, traffic-free routes that you can cover in various weather conditions and times of day. Or try a track at a local school, where the terrain is flat and free of cars, and the distance is measured. Many schools’ tracks are open to the public when they’re not in use. Not ready to venture outside? Find a gym nearby with treadmills and hours that fit your schedule.
Pace yourself. When you first start out, the trick is to be consistent enough that you’re building strength and endurance, yet slow enough that you don’t get hurt. In order to do that, you’re going to need to do all of your training at an easy pace. Get into a rhythm that feels like you could maintain it forever. It should feel comfortable and conversational. “A lot of runners try to run too fast because they see other people and feel like ‘I’m not a runner unless I’m going X pace,’” says coach Jeff Gaudette, founder of RunnersConnect, an online training service. “If you run faster than you should, it’s going to hurt all the time and you’ll never get to a point where you can do it for 20 to 30 minutes.” Develop endurance first; speed will come later. 
Run relaxed. When you start running, it’s common to tense up a lot of the upper-body muscles that aren’t involve with running, which can sap the strength that your lungs and legs need. When running starts to feel difficult, do a “body scan.” Unfurrow your brow, unclench your jaw, bring your shoulders down away from your ears, and keep your hands loose. Avoid clenching your fists. Imagine that you’re holding a piece of paper between each thumb and forefinger.
Stay flexible. Use the training plan as a guide, but don’t hesitate to swap workouts around to fit them into your busy schedule. While longer sessions are ideal, if you’d like to split up the workouts into two or three sessions at first, that’s okay. Make time to work out—and take care of yourself—first thing in the morning, before meetings and family responsibilities can interfere. Set your clothes out in a brightly lit room so you can wake up without waking up everyone else in the house. Make a date with a buddy so you’ll be less likely to hit the snooze button.  Midday, block out the time on your calendar, and treat it like a meeting that you can’t miss. If you have to switch around your workouts from the morning to the evening, or vice versa, don’t be surprised if it takes awhile to adjust. You may have a sluggish, jet-lagged feeling at first. That should go away within two weeks. 
Get distracted. Tuning out—not in—can help you get through those tough first workouts, says Christy Greenleaf, a professor kinesiology at the University of Wisconsin. Recruit a friend to walk the neighborhood with you; watch your favorite sitcom while you’re on the treadmill; put together a workout mix with tunes that evoke happy memories. “Any way that you can focus your attention on something other than how your body feels will help,” says Greenleaf. 
Dress well. When it comes to running shoes and clothes, splurge, don’t scrimp. Worn-out shoes are one of the leading causes of injury; you should replace yours every 300 to 500 miles. Shop at a specialty running store where you can get guidance from experts on finding the pair that offers the fit and support that your feet need. (To find one, check out our storefinder.) While you’re there, invest in shirts, shorts, pants, and jackets made of technical fabrics that wick moisture away from your skin. This may feel like a luxury, but it will keep you comfortable and injury-free for hundreds of miles. Avoid wearing cotton, which absorbs moisture and causes chafing. 
Fuel up for your workouts. It’s okay to head out for a workout on an empty stomach, but you may have more energy if you have a wholesome snack and some fluids beforehand. Drink 8 to 16 ounces before you go; water is best. (No need for sports drinks on any workout that’s less than 75 minutes). Have a 200-calorie snack that’s low in fat and low in fiber (less than 2 grams of fiber per serving) before you head out. Eat at least 30 minutes before your workout. Each individual is unique in terms of digestion time, so you may need to eat closer to your workout or a few hours earlier than what’s prescribed here.
You might check out these great ideas for preworkout fueling:
  • 1 cup low-fiber cereal with ½ cup skim milk
  • 2 fig cookies
  • 1 cup of berries with ½ cup low-fat cottage cheese
  • 3 graham cracker squares with 1 teaspoon of honey
  • 1 orange
  • applesauce (without added sugar)
Get the plan. Start our Run Nonstop plan with a 3:2 running vs. walking ratio, and build up gradually so that eventually you can run for 30 minutes without stopping."
Runners: how long did it take you to build up to running 30 minutes?

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Today, I Mourn.

A year after my miscarriage and it still hurts.



My husband bought me these white roses to keep in the house in memory of what we went through a year ago, this week. Some supportive people come and go, but my husband is always there for me when I need him the most.

Even though I don't talk about it much anymore, I think of her everyday. I usually say a prayer on my way in to work, which always leads me to think and pray about her.

The painful, bitter-sweet memories of when I was pregnant, haunt me in the places where I frequent most. It's a trauma that is impossible to forget. It has forever changed me.

The most common places are constant reminders of the sequence of events that lead up to my miscarriage. It's been a year, and yet, I still feel the warm sting of tears in my eyes almost daily.

Even if just for a minute, I mourn our loss every day.

It feels as if my heart, constantly trying to heal, gets re-broken with each day; with each reminiscent moment.

Often I find myself, unwillingly, replaying the moments in my head; from the time that I found out I was pregnant, until I lost her. I think of the weeks prior to that; I think back to what I was doing. Mostly, I think about what I was doing wrong. I think to myself, "maybe if I wouldn't have done ___________, we wouldn't have lost our baby. We would have her here with us now".

I often find myself literally shaking the memories out of my head. Constantly trying to refocus my bad thoughts into positive ones.

Every single day, I strive to be positive about the situation.
Not today. Today, a year after our loss, I mourn.
I can be strong again, tomorrow.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Pepperoncini Pot Roast

I think I have a new favorite recipe. Bonus: it's a crock pot meal that includes only two ingredients.

I know, you're probably itching your head right now thinking, "but Kay, how can this be?" Well, friend, I'll let you in on the secret. It's called Pepperoncini Pot Roast. Thank you, Lemony Thyme for this idea! My husband and I are entirely in your debt after this amazingly simple and amazingly good recipe!


Ingredients:

1-16oz. jar of pepperoncini's
2 lbs. Shoulder Roast



Directions:

Add ingredients to crock pot. Cook on low for 8 hours.


Turn it into a sandwich (like my husband prefers) or eat it on it's own with a side of green bean crunchtables.


Either way, it's amazing. And you're welcome.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Accountability with Scale Pictures

Daylight Savings time has ended. It's dark as night outside as I write this blog at 6:00 p.m. I am officially ready for spring.

My big event for today is a tie between my 2 hour nap and a grocery shopping trip. The 2 hour nap wins.

Yesterday, I posted my goals for November. In case you missed it, here's what I'm working toward this month:

Goals for November:
Reach 225 lbs. (230.4 lbs currently)
Post Photo Weigh-in weekly (done)
Post Dinner/Exercise Plans weekly (done)
Run/Walk 5 miles a week (looking forward to it!)


This morning's weigh-in


I decided that posting photo weigh-ins weekly would help me to stay more accountable with my weigh-loss. It's easy to type a number and be done with it, but a photo makes things a little more real for me. I need the accountability because I feel like as of late, my husband and I have been storing up for hibernation. We have been eating out entirely too much these past couple weeks. Thankfully, it hasn't affected my weight-loss too much. Except for the fact that it's not happening. I'm turning that trend around this month!

Dinner Plans for the Week:

M - Chicken Salad
T - Flatbread Pizzas
W - Shrimp with Rice and Broccoli
T - Chicken Salad
F - Calzones


Exercise Plans for the Week:

M - Run/Walk
T - Run/Walk
W - Run/Walk
T - Run/Walk
F - Rest

Do you like it better when Daylight Savings Time begins or ends?

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Goals for November

I don't really like to run in the morning.

So, I'm not quite sure why I woke up at 7:00 a.m. and felt like running. I checked the weather and saw that it was due to rain all day, with the exception of 8:00 - 9:00 a.m. I got dressed, made myself a slice of peanut butter toast, left my husband a note and left to run a mile around the track. I finished just in time for the rain to start.





After my run, I went to McDonalds and got my husband a breakfast meal. I got myself a coffee with a pump of pumpkin spice. It was a nice low-calorie treat after my run.




My mom and grandma picked me up a little later in the morning to go shopping and out to lunch. We ate at Panera. I had the Smokehouse Turkey with Broccoli Cheddar Soup. Long story short, I have been eating out a little too much lately. The scale will tell you all about it, tomorrow.

Since I didn't get a chance to post yesterday, I'll share with you my goals for this month, today.

Goals for November:
Reach 225 lbs.
Post Photo Weigh-in weekly
Post Dinner/Exercise Plans weekly
Run/Walk 5 miles a week

Even though it's not going to be pretty, I'll post my first photo weigh-in of the month, tomorrow.

What are your weekend plans?
Do you like McDonald's coffee?