It was humbling yesterday to share that I have basically failed two weeks of my current challenge. Mind you, the challenge is only two week old. I have really had to push back on my “all or nothing” thinking.
In all honesty, I wanted to give up and wait for a better time. I thought to myself that I could just wait until things get easier. But isn’t that part of how I got here in the first place? In the past, I would try and succeed for a little while and then things would get hard, and I’d wait. I’d wait for things to get better, and in the meantime, I’d backslide.
There is certainly a time in a place for “a break” and sure, some seasons do absolutely call for “a pause” or just “giving up” due to a change in circumstances, but this is not that. What this is, is a challenge. Even though it’s basically the same challenge that I have challenged myself to in the past, it is more challenging than before due to current circumstances.
The current circumstances include it being summer first and foremost. Not only is it summer, but it’s the end of summer when we are trying to make sure we “fit it all in” and “don’t miss a thing”. We are eating out more often and going more on a whim than usual. This makes nutrition tracking and planning difficult because we are just kind of going with the wind at this point. And since it’s still summer, it is a warm breeze and it’s wonderful.
Today, I’m going to focus on trying to bring more balance into my life. Yes, we can still go out and grab some late night ice cream from a stand that won’t be open in a few more weeks. But, I need to try to track it and even more so I need to try to make it fit within my nutritional range at least 80% of the time.
The true battle right now is sticking in there even when I’m not sticking to it. This requires grit, and an annoying level of tenacity. I believe I have what it takes.
